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Post by US Virgin Islands on Sept 19, 2010 1:35:25 GMT -5
So I just finished watching a super-romantic, extremely sappy movie (yes, at 2:35am, that's how much of a crappy life I have) which made me think of my oh-so-non-existent-love-life, therefore making me think of why is that, which ended up with me thinking of what would I change about myself.
How did that happen, I don't know, it just did.
But if you ask me, I would change my personality.
Yes, I hate the way I am. I'm just a crazy little bitch, who's always demanding and being hostile. (Yes, I might not be like that here, but I am like that in RL. Trust me.) And actually, I could keep mentioning, but I'm sure you don't wanna see me rambling much, although I already am.
But, anyway, if you had the chance to, what would you change about yourself?
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Post by Indonesia on Sept 19, 2010 5:41:38 GMT -5
I should learn to say no when someone asks me for help. Not lie to them and make an excuse about it. I should also learn to know when to speak at the right time x-x
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Post by UK on Sept 19, 2010 6:30:33 GMT -5
Both the above?
Be completely honest. When I say 'I'm sorry, but I really have no time/I can't be bothered/don't really like that' it actually means something more along the lines of 'fuck off and leave me alone.'
Does that mean I should be even more rude?
Whatever.
Can you change your looks? Because my eyes always look tired until I throw some make-up on.
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Post by US Virgin Islands on Sept 19, 2010 12:34:41 GMT -5
Indy, I totally understand you, because same goes for me.
And UK, I wish we could change our looks. I hate how I look.
And I should seriously get over my shyness. I'm way too shy for my own good.
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Post by Indonesia on Sept 19, 2010 22:05:07 GMT -5
I wish i could lose more weight v_v
damn.
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Post by US Virgin Islands on Sept 19, 2010 23:56:38 GMT -5
... T.T Same.
It's not pretty when your mom/friends/family in general, tells you that you look fat. It doesn't help your self-steem at all.
And after the insults are over with, they proceed to scold me saying that why I'm not 'taking advantage of your height and 'elegance' and be a damn model.' Yeah, pretty contradictory.
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Post by Mauritius on Sept 20, 2010 0:46:32 GMT -5
...
I'm kind of saying something different.
I wish I could start over.
My life is not the way I wanted it to be.
I feel... dirty, disgusting, gross...
I want to be clean.
One time, I woke up in a empty random house, with no memory of how I got there. Thank gosh the door was open and I could leave without a trace.
I lost my virginity at a young age, and I regret it deeply. I want to slap the boy who made me give it to him, and slap myself for letting him do it.
Really.
I regret most of my life.
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Post by Indonesia on Sept 20, 2010 4:44:56 GMT -5
mauri D: *hugs*
i feel extremely complicated in so many ways
sometimes thinking too much could bear a huge consequence
one of them is that you have too much knowledge that you get confused, especially at a young age, that you even mentally whack your teachers guts out with that.
I lost respect in school for it.
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Post by UK on Sept 20, 2010 13:18:40 GMT -5
Huggles all round.
Be able to talk about my problems and stuff. I'll be sitting with a group of friends who are nattering away about this and that and their life and exactly what their boyfriend's shampoo smells like (I kid you not. Seriously.) And I just wonder how they can have the guts to talk about such stuff because I certainly don't.
And being more cynical. Not everything is roses and rainbows and flying horses and shit.
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Post by Quebec on Sept 20, 2010 15:34:29 GMT -5
*Also Huggles*
I'd change the part of me that makes everyone at my school pre-judge me.
In a way I'd change so much about me.
Once I had a dream where you'd live but once you died you'd relive your entire life. knowing everythig you knew when you died. I wish that was real.
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Post by Sealand on Sept 20, 2010 17:02:33 GMT -5
-huggles all-
Well... physically, I'm fine with how I look. I have flaws, but they make me who I am.
Personality wise? I wouldn't be so trusting. And not as submissive. I'm a doormat, and I wish I could change that. I know I can't, but I wish I could.
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Post by US Virgin Islands on Sept 20, 2010 19:19:58 GMT -5
Mauri, here, have a big. (>^.^)>
I know what you're talking about. I dust lose my virginity, but I was close to. And it wasn't even a random guy, it was the brother of my grandmother.
I'm kind of the 'drama-queen' sometimes. I get upset/sad/blahblahblah really easily, so you'll often see me avoiding all my friends. I HATE to do that, yet I can't help myself. I've done it so much that it's automatic.
Being in a bad/melancholic mood = isolating myself for the rest of the day.
I really wish I could stop doing that. It's annoying (even fr me) and totally uncalled for. Who needs an over-reacting bitch on their group anyways?
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Post by Quebec on Sept 20, 2010 19:41:48 GMT -5
*Huggles USVI and Sea* I can overeact too.
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Post by Indonesia on Sept 20, 2010 19:46:16 GMT -5
*hugs everyone* godd we all have problems  |
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Post by Mauritius on Sept 21, 2010 1:41:06 GMT -5
... At least we all have problems together.
.-.
I've started to think of us as a giant, awkward, nerdy, fun, dysfunctional family.
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